Suitor

Lifeguard

 

My father is modest. He didn’t save hundreds

from drowning. Just a few dozen.

Gathered from the swell, the riptide, rough,

rough waves he carried them ashore.

 

Half-lit, he tells it again. The storm

against sky, the lifeguard without fear

alone in the water, the crowd

gathered to witness.

 

                        Here’s what to notice:

the danger of weather, failures

            of the other people to help, we never know

            what happened to the boy.

 

This is my humble brag, my bravado,

my foolish affection

to write the same poem year after year.

In some versions I am the lifeguard.

In others I’m drowning.

Then I’m sky. Then wave.

 

 

 

 

from The Suitors

 

 

My mother’s third boyfriend owned a Peugeot

he let me drive over the Choptank River Bridge.

He wore cedar aftershave and a camelhair coat.

He opened his framing shop for business

almost every Tuesday and Wednesday afternoon.

 

            He told me adult jokes, bought me a racing kite,

took me out with golf buddies

who drank G&Ts and would bet on anything—

chip shots, baseball games, the cup size

of the waitresses at the Hole-in-One.

 

Once, for a costume party, he dressed as a pimp.

Gold chains, leather coat, a peacock

feather tucked in the hat’s band.

He came over in blackface.

My mother wore fishnets,

a tight red dress, matching lipstick,

blue-cloud eye shadow.

 

His shoe polish skin, her fever dress,

our family on the front lawn—

there is no way to catalog or camouflage

this moment. I’ve tried. It’s like a kite

caught in a tree high above ground

and there’s no way to bring it down

without breaking it or the branches.